Tuesday, July 31, 2012

MUTE ME :')



Bismilahhirahmanirahim.
Assalammualaikum :')



My first name started with NUR means light or in Malay its cahaya.
So I guess I should shine mine and other people life.
Sometimes I fall sometimes I rise.
Sometimes wanting to please others in your life makes you feel suffocate.
Sometimes the saddest thing is being with people that supposed to be CLOSE to you,
but they are seems to be the the person YOU DO NOT KNOW.Stranger you know?
SOMETIMES,the person you hate or have hurt you the most,
turns out to be the one that so kind to you.
Sometimes even you try your best its still not the best.
You smile just for the sake of people think,yeahh she is stronger now.But it does not mean
she can't break down sometimes rite?
When there so much things being bottle up within yourself,
the stress and pressure is like a BIG BANG rite?
Sometimes people are so cruel yet there are still good things about them.
Sometimes the closest one betray you,
but you have to have a grip or you will lose.
Yess its hard to satisfy human.Too tiring.
If you fight them with anger,its cruel but if you fight them with patient
they seems to stepping on your head every time?
Maybe yess maybe no.
Sometimes you really want to forget but you fail.
Hey I mishu ok? :')
sometimes I just can't around people.
You know,its like tiring.
Its like everything is WRONG.
And can't blame totally to other,my imperfection is KILLING me sometimes.
I know Allah understand me.
and He know how much I treasure you.
I would go back to the past if I could.
But Im trying to living in my present.
So that I will make a better future.
Trying to be a  better person.
And I wish just wish not to take advantage of people.
and not treasuring them.And sometimes silence is the loudest
REBEL.
How am I suppose to talk when everything does not pleasing.
heee~
Im sorry.
I hate it when I hurt you too.
I want to be a better muslimah.
I hope my silent please you.
Maybe I am just afraid if I will hurt you again.
So I choose to be mute.




Sunday, July 22, 2012

Your choice.



Assalammualaikum.




Think again,yg dtg akan pergi jua.
Tapi Dia yg satu tak pernah berpaling.
Setia menunggu hamba-hambaNya untuk kembali.
Biar dosa segunung Everest, selagi bernafas.
Pintu taubat sentiasa terbuka.
Renung-renungkan.



Saturday, July 21, 2012

My other half :')



Assalammualaikum.



 Its kinda weird when you come to my dream.
When you still the one of the person I miss most.
When you are one of the top person I care,always kan? :D
when everytime I have to call out your name,I feel something.
and if I have to confronting you,I will act like that little girl.
Malu-malu.(you know!)
Its like years of knowing each other.
lagi mahu malu-malu.hee~
when i just like to watch your face forever and always.
Its like I still remember your favorite color.
AND and and...
despite whatever...
Honestly,if someone ask.
My answer is still you.
but you know.sometimes...
let it be my secret and Allah.
Its a bless,when you love someone since forever.
and its awesome,when I can feel this much for someone.
And happy ending does exist,kan? :')
 true love course never did run smooth kan?
soulmate?


"There will come a time in your life when you will become infatuated with a single soul. For this person you'd do anything and not think twice about it, but when asked why ... you have no answer. You'll try your whole life to understand how a single person can affect you as much as they do, but you'll never find out. And no matter how badly you hate it or how badly it hurts ... you'll love this person without regret, for the rest of your life"

#heee jiwang pulokss.Salam Ramadhan sayam-sayam semua.
SAYAM is sayang,okeng? 





Saturday, July 14, 2012

Ever-lasting patience :')



Assalammualaikum.



Wehoooo,walopon kita busyy.Kita nak juga hupdate belog,sementara line tengah tip top.
Sebab berada di luar kampus.Hikhikhik.
So recently I experienced so many things.Macam roller-coaster tahu?
Bila selingkuh,rasa sedih :'(
Dalam hidup ni,kita akan didatangi pelbagai ujian.Kadang-kadang tengah happy2,dah dilambung
tsunami.Kan?
nak puaskan hati setiap orang itu adalah amat sukar sekali.
Maka,jadikan satu sebagai priority.
Iaitu Allah.Tuhan yang satu.
Dulu selalu fikir,we have to be firm with our thoughts.
tapi nak tegas pon ada cara taw taw taw.Kekadang aku rasa sangat tabik,okeyh bukan 
kekadang tapi loike selalu okeyh.Nabi Muhammad sangat lembut dgn orang disekelilingnya.
Biarpun kalau seseorang itu secara terang-terangan tidak suka baginda.
Sabar.Ye kesabaran manusia itu sebenarnya tiada tahap.Walopon aku assume 
kesabaran aku mcm ada limit,tapi mungkin sebab dipengaruhi oleeh keadaan di sekeliling.
Dan juga,hasutan Syaitan.Tsk tsk tsk.
Bila aku fikir-fikir dan muhasabah diri,aku rasa kecil sekecil-kecil yg amat.
Biarlah orang nak buat kita macam-macam.
Biarlah nak mengata,nak back-stab,apa benefitnya kalau aku balas?
Nak jadi macam dia orang juga?
Aku percaya,sejahat-jahat manusia masih mampu untuk berubah.
Mungkin orang akan cakap aku ni bajet lah baik konon! kan?
sampai bila nak hidup ikut ckp orang.I mean yg baik kita ambil,yg terpesong
kita padam dan reject.
diri ni jauh dari sempurna,kadang-kadang fikir sejenak.
Ya Allah,layak ke nak masuk syurga-Mu?
Sekarang ni maksiat berleluasa...Macam mana nak tegur ni?
mmg kubur kita lain-lain.tapi sy sayang awk tahu?
sy taknak awk kena seksa.
Saya juga taknak kena seksa sebab tak cegah.
betullah orang cakap,setiap yg terjadi itu ada reason.
Ada hikmah yang tersembunyi.
SO harap2 lepas ni lebih tabah!You can do it baby!

P/S: :')


 Bagaimana kau merasa bangga
Akan dunia yang sementara
Bagaimanakah bila semua hilang dan pergi
Meninggalkan dirimu

Bagaimanakah bila saatnya
Waktu terhenti tak kau sadari
Masikah ada jalan bagimu untuk kembali
Mengulangkan masa lalu

Dunia dipenuhi dengan hiasan
Semua dan segala yang ada akan
Kembali padaNya

Bila waktu tlah memanggil
Teman sejati hanyalah amal
Bila waktu telah terhenti
Teman sejati tingallah sepi

S.I.N.G.L.E :)

 
Assalammualaikum ;)

"Sesungguhnya, sendiri itu terapi yang indah. Terlalu indah bagi mereka yang benar-benar memahami istilah sendiri. Allah SWT ciptakan sendiri itu untuk mengembalikan semula hambaNya yang 'hilang'. Dia biarkan kamu yakni insan yang terpilih untuk bersendiri hanya semata-mata inginkan kamu kembali ke jalanNya. Bukan untuk menghukum kamu. Sebaliknya, untuk menyatakan kasih sayangNya kepada
hamba-hambaNya." ;)
 
                                     

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

ISTIKHARAH :')



Assalammualaikum :')



Bersaksi cinta di atas cinta
Dalam alunan tasbihku ini
Menerka hati yang tersembunyi
Berteman di malam sunyi penuh doa

Sebut nama-Mu terukir merdu
Tertulis dalam sajadah cinta
Tetapkan pilihan sebagai teman
Kekal abadi hingga akhir zaman

Istikharah cinta memanggilku
Memohon petunjuk-Mu
Satu nama teman setia
Naluriku berkata

Di penantian luahan rasa
Teguh satu pilihan
Memenuh separuh nafasku
Dalam mahabbah rindu

Di istikharah cinta



p/s:Put one name,one face,one voice deep in my heart.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Marry me?eheh~



Assalammualaikum.


cantik sangat kad kahwin ni okeyh!!!mcm kulit buku novel yg harus aku beli!haha


Tahun ni ramai orang yg aku kenal kahwin okeyh!!!!
Wueuueueueuuuwuwuueuwuueu,jelos.
kehkehkeh.
Aku bila ni?eiceh,gedik hang eh.

Alhamdullilah,selamat nikah hari jumaat malam.

 Hari tukan belogger kesayangan haku kahwin!!!dekat je kot kat Masjid Tanah!
oh just so you know,dulu dia belajo kat tempat haku gak.
nyesal aku bila nampak dia dulu tak snap gambo bagai!wuuuuuuu~sedih.
Tapi apakah daya,aku ada program kat UNIVERSITI.
Walopon boleh je kalao nak gi pastuh,tapi tak pe ah.
Tak pe ah.Walopon blogger yg femos ames sume datang kan.Tapi Fatin Suhana tak dtg.
wuuwuwu sebab beliau nak pigi Paris!

Annas easkey,the femes amos photographer and fatin suhana!wehoo.Off to paris!
cantik kan?


awesome!

okeyh sambung balik entri kahwin.ahah.

sejuk je mata memandang kan bila dah halal?

comel comel!

okeyh yg ni aku jeloos sikit!ahah.

dan dan dan perkahwinan selebriti yang bagi aku mmg bless InsyaAllah :')
nak nanges aku tengok video dia org hari tuh.
sweetnya!

Indah kan?

SubhanAllah,May Allah bless them :')

So when when when...

lelaki tu abang aku okeyh!
Sweetnya kahwin kan?

Friday, July 6, 2012

The People and Drama :')



Assalammualaikum.

some people are annoying,but you have to trust that they will insaf too :')

Yeah yeah Im back Im back!
AWESOME!!!(pasni baik ko buat assigment!!!!)
So I just want to share a lit bit of that this and bla bla bla.
Trust?Is it true once broken mmg jgn harap lah kau nk regain the trust within the secs?
kihkih.Suusaaaah ikit le kan kan?
Now I realized banyak lagi dalam world yg kita kena over come.Selagi ada manusia,
selagi itu adalah Drama2,ada yg manis,ada yg masam dan ada juga yg pahit.
Pengalaman yg paling awesome kan,sebab dapat in real life.
Tapi disebabkan mungkin Alhamdullilah aku ni dah makan terlebih garam,
so walopon actually mmg mencabar kesabaran haku yg mmg limited edition tu,dan ada sesal juga
sbb mmg bila dh tak tahan mmg rasa Annoying dan nk marah2.
and also and also need someone to listen what I've been through.


Kadang-kadang kita nak jadi baik,elok-elok nak ok,tapi manusia2 
di sekeliling kita akan Allah datangkan sebagai ujian dan juga keadaan sekeliling.
Kalau ikutkan setan,mmg dah lama jatuh tergolek ke belakang.
Kadang-kadang simpan2 dalam hati rasa dah nak terbakar diri sendiri.
Dan dan bila kita share kat orang,we expected that,that one particular person tak bawak mulut.
dan cerita yg bukan2.But sometimes tak semua berlaku mcm apa yg kita rancang kan?
seseorang pernah berkata "orang mmg suka nak menjatuhkan kita"
so kita kena kuat.Orang2 yg nak jatuhkan kita ni mmg sebab life dia sucks.Kihkih.
Fact kan?sebab tu sibuk jaga tepi kain dalam orang lain.Booo,tak cool okeh.
Kadang-kadang aku rasa cannot go you know.
But as you know,I also have few good friends,yg InsyaAllah boleh dipercayai.wuwuwuuw.
I mean,I cannot be surrounded with all the negative thinking and 
gloomy and all the  very very black aura around me,I feel suffocated!
Stress yaw!Its hard to convince myself either.
But then then,I've been thinking.Maybe there is something I didn't know.
Although nowadays its like,whatever,Im not going to be that person yg too care you know?
But but but still adalah sikit2 tuh kena tanya gak.Sebab though if aku nak jadi
feeling-less pong,aku ni mmg tak boleh.kekke.susah sikit.
ouh just so you know,my truly self is actually,Im not the kind of people yang
go with the flow and crowd actually,I am more to go againts the odds.Coz I dont really believe 
in the IMPOSSIBLE bagai sume.If I said its impossible,its just that time I feel unmotivated and
and and malas nak argue.I don't feel I am alive when I just do things that everyone does.
Macam life is so lame,kekekke.
So pokoknya,aku rasa orang yang jahak ke hape ni,skjp je dia boleh jadik baik,bukan sekejap
yg sekejap like you know?maksudnya sekelip mata je dia boleh berubah!
dan yg baik skrg kalau tak betul2 jaga,boleh terpesong juga.
Dan lidah manusia ni tajam,kadang-kadang kena sabar je.
Kadang-kadang diam tu lebih baik,tapi salah juga sebab orang akan kata kita sombong kan?
tapi banyak cakap orang annoyed pulak.
Pokonya,hey Im not living in  this earth to satisfy people you know.
 Mahu gilo aku kalo sume nak puaskan hati,takde pendirian ah gitu kan kan?
Tapi tak adalah sampai nak berperangai yg cruel evil devil sangat,erh kalo dah
terbuat tuh,minta maaf banyak2.sebab kadang-kadang of coz si setan akan emngambil
kesempatan bila kita off guard.Nak-nak bila tengah marah.
To be honest,dulu maybe aku boleh cakap,I dont trust anyone,even myself.
Tapi right now,I do trust myself rather than anyone else,
dan dan of coz ALLAH :)
manusia ni baik sebenarnya,cuma bila dah bg setan bermaharajalela,mmg lingkup lah.



#orang boleh kata apa-apa.
sebab dia bukan kita.
they don't know what we've been through.
kan?
aku rasa annoying bila aku judge orang lain.
wuwuuwuw,nauzzubillah betul.contohilah sifat setan iaitu,
tak berputus asa,tapi bukan yg jahak tu.maksudnya tak berputus asa dlm sesuatu.
kalo syaitan,suka nak goda kita buat jahak dn tak pts asa,
kita pula tak putus asa suka buat baik tahu!
nanti dia akan kalah!see see see? 



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Tuesday, July 3, 2012

mama and baba :')

Assalammualaikum :')


Alhamdullilah,masih diberi peluang oleh Allah Tuhan yg Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang utk 
mencoret coretan hati.
So currently mmg sangat busy,haishh!
And lots to do.Walopon masih lagi seorang pelajar rasa macam tak cukup kaki
bila jalan dah rasa macam terbang je!
Kadang-kadang penat teramat,macam skrg tapi sebab ini penting so nak tulis juga.
Walopon assigment melambak2 dan bertimbun-timbun.Eh samakan?
Tapi nak tulis juga.
So sejak-sejak dua menjak ini,tengah buat reserach atau pon kumpul ilmu tentang isu-isu semasa 
di dunia.
So seriously aku rasa bersyukur sangat-sangat sebab Alhamdullilah dilahirkan sempurna dan cukup
semua.InsyaAllah :')
So skrg mmg tak sompat lah kalau den nk hupdate apa yg sebenarnya tersirat.but but.
apa kata aku bg mukadimah dulu.
dan boleh lah kita sama-sama memuhasabah kan diri kita semua :')




 Bila mak kata dia teringat, kita jawab kita sibuk sangat.
» Bila ayah kata dia rindu, kita jawab nantilah hujung minggu.
» Bila mak minta kita pulang, kita jawab kita belum lapang.
» Bila ayah minta kita singgah, kita jawab kerja kita belum selesai.
» Bila hati kita terguris, kita kata “Mak memang tak pernah faham”.
» Bila hati kita terhiris, kita kata “Ayah memang tak ambil kisah”

Tetapi

» Bila hati mak kita terguris, mak kata “Tak apa, dia masih muda”.
» Bila hati ayah kita terhiris, ayah kata “Tak apa, belum sampai akalnya”.
» Bila kita menangis tanda lapar, mak berlari bagai hilang kaki.
» Bila kita merintih tanda derita, ayah bersengkang mata bagaikan tiada lena.
» Bila kita sedih kerana gagal, mak setia membekalkan cekal.
» Bila kita pilu kerana kecewa, ayah teguh berkata dia tetap bangga.

Fikir-fikirkanlah

credit to facebook :)



p/s:To my mom and dad.
Im sorry,for all the bad things I ever did.
To make you both cry when I was sick and bla bla.
When others leave,you stood by me.
When I want something,you give it to me.
Please live well,I am on my way to make you proud of me.
I don't really tell you I love you,
but I change because I love you :')
and also because you guys are will to take care
of my two cats.hihihihihi. 
Lambatnya nak habes belajo...


 
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