Monday, February 15, 2016

Tips Cari Kerja + Interviews + Cari Jodoh? :Are we out the woods?


Assalammualaikum.

Gambar ehsan drpd entah, but motif? Sentiasalah kita meminta2 kpd Tuhan.He indeed wanna listen to
our prayers.

Ya Allah dah lama dah I tak menaip,Banyak gilo nak cerita and banyak gilo nak share.
To be honest after habis belajar I mean masa nak habiskan belajar, hidup I dah mcm roller coaster.
Turunnya banyak jugak.Tornado melanda,  banjir semua ada. (Hiperbola saja ihiks.) Nak habaq ni, nak habiskan I punya degree yg secoet tu punyalah susah,Ya Allah. Banyak betul turun naiknya. I tahu sekarang ni macam susah kan nak cari kerja? Tapi jgn risau sebab Tuhan dah kata kalau kau doa sungguh dan usaha memang akan dapat. So kau jangan nak pemalas!Kerja melambak tahu!And nak bagi tahu juga, kalau mula kerja  nak gaji sedap mmg taklah.So korang kena build your foundation.

Kalau korang nak tahu.Aku ni buat dua internship.Legend kan? Kahkahkah.Walaupun masa tu aku rasa down sangat tapi aku rasa tu pengalaman paling berharga.Sebab aku buat internship lg lama daripada sepatutnya yg aku kena buat dan aku kerja dkt swasta dan kerajaan.So legend kan? Tapi pasal tu nanti jelah aku cerita.Yang penting walaupun aku rasa dulu aku MALANG tapi aku rasa Tuhan dah atur baik-baik je.

Aku belajar Business Management nak lebih mendalam lagi it is Office system Management, tapi kalau korang suruh aku buat system, aku takdelah bagus mana.Ha ha.Menyesal aku tak belaja bebetul dulu.Kalau tak boleh buat part time keje buat system, kayo tu okay!Yelah skrg ni bukan result cgpa je kena tinggi, kemahiran tu yg paling penting.Sbnarnya walaupun org ingat mulut aku ni mulut murai, tapi aku sbnrnya pndiam juga.Aku sbnrnya suka juga kalau kerja dgn mesin.Tapi aku pon suka tolong orang (amboi angkat bakul sendiri).Walaupun aku selalu tertanya knplah aku ni tak belajo jadik doktor ke engineer ker, tapi aku rasa skrg baru aku paham.Allah dah tentukan yg terbaik utk kita semua.Kalau korang nak tahu result SPM aku teruk ok.Sobs.Tapi itu bukan bukti korang takleh berjaya! So aku ni everytime cuti sem, aku suka bekerja.Nak cari duit, yelah pak mak aku bukan org senang walaopon ada suara-suara sumbang yg akan kata memacam, tapi aku bukanlah orang senang. Aku orang biasa je, so sebab tulah aku takleh nak lepak je kat umah.Mesrti nak cari kerja cepat2 walaopon sbnrnya malas juga.Tapi duk fikir, duit takkan turun drpd langit.

So berbekalkan pengalaman kerja setiap cuti sem, dan result degree yg suam-suam kuku je.Aku pon mengapply kerja.Dan Alhamdullilah sem inggu sajo menganggur aku dapat kerja customer service.Dan nak habaq ni, kalau kau org rasa cust service tak boleh buat duit korang silap besarlah. Hello we making money yo.Aku masa tu kerja dgn syarikat singapore based dkt melaka. Panjang mukadimahnya. So nak bg tahu korang lah.Aku dpt kerja 1 week after finish study.So kalau korang nk terus dpt kerja pon boleh gak.Apply awal-awal atau masa tengah buat internship tu korang baiklah dgn bos mana tahu dapat.Honestly, banyaklah mulut-mulut org ckp aku guna canle, cable ? Amboi, aku ni tak de pon minta cablem semua kerja cari sendiri.Aku ni taknaklah susahkan org, lgpon nak tahulah keupayaan sendiri.So tawakal je.Kalau kau pakai cable pon rezeki kau.Manalah tahu nanti aku nak gak pakai cable telepon ke.Lol. Aku selalu ingatkan diri , cari kerja sendiri,jgn guna cable sebab at least kau tahu kemampuan kau.

harus kerja kuat sebab suka melancong tengok dunia. 

tips cari kerja:

silalah apply dekat laman web femoa amos such as:
1.Jobstreet, tapi susah gak nak dapat kat sini.
2.Mudah.com, ramai org tak tahu mudah korang boleh apply kerja.lagi senang dan org selalu tepon aku interview.
3.Indeed.com pon okay gak.Banyak variety.
4.Maukarja pon okay gao.Emoticon dia pon comel je.
5.Takpon surat khabar tu beli,lg melambak.


So after aku dah kerja selama hampir 6 bulan di syarikat tu.Aku kerja angkat tepon, tapi kau jgn ingat senang lah.Sbb masuk kat situ barulah aku tahu cust service ni addalah pekerjaan yg memerlukan kesabaran yg sangat tinggi.Nasiblah aku tak jadi dragon ball.sobs.Tapi aku tahulah aku ni penyabar gak.Selepas 6 bulan aku benti keje.Sebab tut tut, aku dah lama di melaka.So marilah kita ke KL.Korang kalau nak berhenti jgn main blah je, kang masuk mahkamah.Hehe.Aku 24 hours dan bayar lah gaji satu bulan.Tp ikutlah syarikat korang.Syarikat lama aku in terms of payment ,mmg superb wei.Dan disitu juga anda bolehlah mencari jodoh.International woi,sbb syarikat international taw.

okay tips interview?
1.confident level tinggi! Inilah yg aku berlajar setelah beribu riban interview aku pegi.
walaupun masa interview KLIA tu aku mcm kampong gila.Kau tahu aku pakai kasut heels secoet jer.Lipstik takdo, orang lain semua mcm model.Tp confient aku masa tu,aku buat2 tinggi.Selamba jer aku pinjam lipstik org.kahkahkah.So walaopon org lain nampak havoc, u dont give up!

2.soalan tricky masa interview,so mcm aku punya pekerjaan.Cust service,Hr.Marketting ataupon PA.
Biasanya dia akan tanya where do you see you are after 5 years?
-ataupun dia akan tekan kau mcm-macam.Like kenapa kau berhenti kerja dulu?
and satu lg korang kenalah study syarikat tu sikit.Macam aku, aku sbnrnya tak study mana pon, aku baca lah summary, like vision and mission of teh company.
And guess what?Aku campakkan dan muntahkan benda alah tu masa interview.They will impress!
Percayalah cakap aku.

3.Penampilan.Kalau boleh,pakai formal like baju kemeja putih ,and seluar slack hitam.Cause they wanna se you dress up bebeh.Penampilan melambangkang syarikat tu mcm mana kan.So dress up!Tapi bergantung gaklah, kau kena study syarikat korang.Mcm kerja aku yg skrg ni, penmpilan kena jaga.aku dah rasa aku ni mcm peramugari ground pulak.Ha ha ha.

4.Walaupun contohnya kau ada SPM je, korang jgn mengalah, sbb kadang2 dia nak tengok kau punya konfiden je.Tapi kan kalau syarikat yg memerlukan english tu elok sikit, aku suggestkan korang, retake je english spm tu, atau mungkin ada cara lain,sbb skrg ni english dah jadi mcm normal dah.Tp jgn give up, boleh cuba.Dan percayalah english itu semudah ABC.Sebab orang semua ingat english aku ni superb,pada hal, bagai nak gila aku train sampailah skrg ni.Grammar pon terabur, tp aku ckp je.Kdg2 aku tak pahm pon apa org tu ckp, dgn british slang nya, tp berkat usaha,So jgn ragu-ragu ye!Persetankan saja sape yg herdik kau ckp broken english tu.

5.Aturkanlah fail resume korang tu cantik2.Sijil2 tu drpd zaman tertinggi sampai yg terendah.Macam degree sampailah spm, ke pmr ke, upsr ke tadika ke.tapi biasanya sampai pmr atau spm je.

Bagi akulahkan, memula tu korang cari pengalaman kerja je.Gaji tak banyak takpe.Jgnlah mentang2 kau degree, rasa diri tu gah sangat.Last2 sampai mati pon takde kerja.Pengalaman tu penting.Aku pernah je kerja kedai buku, angkat benda berat, bersih stor sume aku pernah.Masih ingat lagi zaman kedaifan aku.Aku pi kerja naik bas taaw!So jgn pikir aku ni mewah bagai.Nak mewah kita jgn dengki dgn orang, kerja kau halal dah Alhamdullilah.

Korang kalau duduk luar kl, nak cari kerja aku harap korang sediakan duit banyak sikit.Sebab kos hidup sini tinggi.Lepas tu kalau korang dpt,kena ulang alik bagai.Kos tu!Dan mcm aku ni aku Alhamdullilah, slps tanam anggur selama sebulan lebih dua bulan, setelah aku berhenti kerja, dapat kerja.Dan aku sbnrnya dpt dua tawaran, satu di Klia satu di kolej perubatan.Tapi aku kan sangat sudah jatuh cinta dgn Klia.Serious aku tak sangka aku dpt.Rasa cam nak nangis jer,Sobs betul.Sbb masa tu aku dh give upgak.Susah tul nak cari kerja.Tapi jgn putus asa.Macam aku, aku ni dah lama nak aim kerja KLIA.So bg aku ,aku carilah kerja di sana.SO IF YOU THINK YOU LIKE ONE COMPANY, KAU AIM KAN SAMPAI DPT KERJA!InsyaAllah berkat usaha dan doa mesti dapat.

Selain dprd itu, kerja di sini, kita juga bolehlah mencari jodoh.haha.Sbnrnya aku pon tak tahu knp aku suka kerja di KLIA. Mungkin, sebab aku suka travel.Mungkin sbb banyak foreigner.Mungkin sbb aku dah lama mengidam nak tahu mcmmana operasi airport.Dan yg penting dapat tiket free.So gaji aku biasa2 jer, tp yg penting aku blh buat OT.Yg penting after kau dh kerja dlm, lg sng kau nk tahu jwtn keksongan yg lain.Lg sng kau nak naik pangkat.Aku mmg takde cabel pon.Kalau ada pon InsyaAllah aku jarang2 pakai.Aku cuma nk bg tahu, aku tahu hidup skrg susah.Kos hidup tinggi.Kau tahu, aku last minute dapat rumah sewa murah, I mean bilik sewa murah dkt dgn KLIA.Ya Allah, aku rasa bersyukur sangat.Tak payah lah aku kena TOL.So korang jgn mudah putus semangat ye.Sblm nk pi KL tu, kenalah ada dlm 1000 lebih atau mungkin 400 pon boleh ikut jauh mana kau duduk.Sbb aku interview, after interview kena dtg lg utk, briefing, after that kena hantar pula medical check up, after that barulah kerja.Tapi jgn lupa aturan Tuhan tu indah2 sangat.


kalau kerja barulah dapat makan sedap2 tiga bulan sekali.


So jgnlah kita bermalas malasan.Sebab rezeki ada di mana2.Jgn lah kau demand baru habis belajar nak jadi CEO, itu bukalah syarikat sendiri.Goyang kaki.Tapi kalau bos pemalas syarikat lingkup gak.
So good luck.



Sunday, May 24, 2015

Fix yourself.


Hi.

5 years ago, a person told me to fix myself. I thought that there was nothing wrong with me.
But maybe.
Today I've admitted.
I was dreaming to be with a prince, when I was nothing.Well im still yet nothing.
But back then, it was sincere despite all the sh*it.
nowadays people see my smile.maybe thinking she is doing well.
the truth is i feel like dying.

as i cannot say im not okay.
fake friends who stab you when you tried to give everything for them.
ex boyfriends who were abusive.
what's more?

God,forgive me for complaining.
*sigh.

the truth is.you are right, im just a loser,loner.
Loser, loner
A coward who pretends to be tough
A mean delinquent

A loner, a jackass covered in scars
Dirty trash
Honestly, I’ve never fit in with the world
I was always alone
It’s been a long time since I’ve forgotten about love
I can’t listen to hopeful love songs anymore
You and me both
We’re just sad clowns, tamed and scripted
I’ve come too far
I’M COMING HOME
I wanna go back
To when I was young
At some point
I started looking at the ground more than the sky
It’s hard even to breathe
I hold out my hand
But no one holds it
It’s a cycle of boys and mistakes
Love them for one night
And hate them when morning comes
Can’t own up to it
Because of my selfish pleasure
Everything is being ruined
Can’t stop this dangerous full speed run
Now I have no interest, no fun anymore
I’m standing alone at the edge of a cliff
I’m going home
I wanna go back
To how it was before
At some point
I’ve gotten scared of people’s eyes
I’m sick of crying so I tried smiling
But no one recognizes me
so you dont need to try to shove on my face.I know, im not worth it.Im just tired.I never
Feel more empty.


Sunday, February 15, 2015

Blind?


Oh.
sorry.
it's been a while.
oh well i miss my smile.



Look.You probably will read this right?
or not? well whatever Im still going to write it.
Im not that plain stupid.

Im not blind either, just in case if you thought I am.
I am 23.
And I dont have the time to play games.
And well.
You just dont get over her yet kan?

I know.
No matter what.
You going to say.
I know.

Funny.
Funny.
It's just.
stupidly.

For trying too much for someone's who doesn't bother at all.
because I thought.
you care.

well sorry.
I hope so much for someone.
who still stuck at his past.

kan?

is it even hurt when you said.
you feel like dying.
when i talk about him?

or it was just another lie.
you know better.

and well.
if what i wrote.
is bullshit.
then maybe.
im just pretty lame blind.

the funniest thing.
is you made me feel like im completely nothing.
well.
real talk.

i ain't nothing pon.
and i always know.
not pretty shit.
sucks relationshit with most of people.
blacksheep of the troops most of the time.
but well.

are you still trying to make me feel unwanted though?
i already know.
that i can't compare to anyone.
oh she?
truth is.
i look at her frequently.
damn shit.
she is perfect kan?
still.
even with all the shits.
and me?

damn.
i never like myself pon.
im lacking in anything and any way.
but maybe.
maybe i just wanna trust.
that even with my lacking.
you wont.
push it too much.
to the point when i feel like.
i wish i can be.
someone.
you gonna miss.

it's just.
if im your girl.
they why makes other people.
taking care more than you?
i miss u.
gila.

and well.
to you that read this.
that probably know nothing at all.
oh please, dont assume things honey.






Saturday, February 14, 2015

Stay grand, Just Yet,



Oh.
Hi.
Its's been a while?



The weight
of a simple human emotion
weighs me down
more than the tank ever did


The pain
it's determined and demanding
to ache, but I'm okay . . .


And I don't want to let this go
I don't want to lose control
I just want to see the stars with you

And I don't wanna say goodbye
someone tell me why

I just want to see the stars with you

You lost, a part of your existence
in the war, against yourself
oh, the lights,

they light up in lights of sadness
telling you, it's time to go

And I don't want to let this go
I don't want to lose control



Don't give it up just yet stay grand
for one more minute, don't give it up
just yet stay grand(no)

Don't give it up just yet stay grand
for one more minute, don't give it up

just yet stay grand.




Thursday, December 25, 2014

ต้องโทษใจมันไม่รักดี ก็มันดีแต่รักเธอ: dtaung toht jai mun mai ruk dee gor mun dee dtae ruk tur



เธอคงเบื่อใช่ไหม ที่ฉันยังอยู่รบกวนใจเธอ
Tur kong beua chai mai tee chun yung yoo rop guan jai tur

You’re probably sick of me bothering you, aren’t you?

มามองตาทั้งทั้งที่เธอผลักไส
Mah maung dtah tung tung tee tur pluk sai

I look into your eyes, even though you’re pushing me away

ฉันก็เบื่อตัวเองเหมือนกัน ที่มันไม่ยอมเมินไป
Chun gor beua dtua eng meuan gun tee mun mia yaum mern bpai

I’m sick of myself too, that I refuse to turn away

นานเพียงใดก็ยังยืนยันจะรอ
Nahn piang dai gor yung yeun yun ja ror

However long it’ll be, I’m still reassuring you that I’ll wait

(*) ไม่รับรู้อะไรทั้งนั้น ใจมันรั้นไม่ฟังเหตุผล
Mai rup roo arai tung nun jai mun run mai fung hetpon

I refuse to acknoledge it all, my heart is stubborn and won’t listen to reason

ดูแล้วเหมือนคน พูดไม่รู้เรื่องใช่ไหม
Doo laeo meuan kon poot mai roo reaung chai mai

I’ve seen it, and it’s like it doesn’t understand what people are saying, right?

(**) เธอบอกไม่รักเท่าไรเท่าไร
Tur bauk mai ruk tao rai tao rai

You tell me how much you don’t love me

ไม่ยอมเข้าใจเข้าใจ
Mai yaum kao jai kao jai

I refuse to understand, to understand

แกล้งหูทวนลมมันไปได้ทุกที
Glaeng hoo tuan lom mun bpai dai took tee

I pretend to turn a deaf ear every time

ได้ยินคำเดียวรักเธอรักเธอ
Dai yin kum diao ruk tur ruk tur

I can only hear one thing; “I love you,” “I love you

มันดังอยู่ข้างในนี้
Mun dung yoo kahng nai nee

It’s loud inside here

ต้องโทษใจมันไม่รักดี ก็มันดีแต่รักเธอ
dtaung toht jai mun mai ruk dee gor mun dee dtae ruk tur

I must apologize that my heart is stubborn, it’s only good at loving you

รู้ว่าไม่มีหวัง ทั้งรู้ก็ยังหวังว่าจะมี
Roo wah mai mee wung tung roo gor yung wung wah ja mee

I know that I have no hope, but even though I know this, I still hope I will

จะมีวันได้ยินว่ารักสักครั้ง
Ja mee wun dai yin wah ruk suk krung

I will have some day that you’ll hear how much I love you

แม้ว่าในวันนี้ ต้องฟังเธอบอกว่าไม่มีทาง
Mae wah nai wun nee dtaung fung tur bauk wah mai mee tahng

Even though today I must listen to you tell me there’s no way

ไม่เป็นไรไม่เอามารู้สึกท้อ
Mai bpen rai mai ao mah roo seuk tor

It’s okay, I don’t want to feel discouraged

(*,**)
รักเธอ
Ruk tur

I love you

แม้ว่า
Mae wah
Even though

...

Monday, December 8, 2014

I won't.






I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and gifts
We got yeah we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my baby at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn, how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what i got, and what i'm not
And who i am


I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough.
I just realize that.

After so much of confusion, I think you are still the best.
Even though sometimes you make me cry but you also try your hard to make me smile.
I was thinking deeply. Thoroughly.
And I think, I have love you.
More than I love my first love.
And I think in anyway.
You are better than him.
For him,was once the most important person in my life.
Because no one treats me goodly.
Until you happen.
I mean.
Those girls who break your heart, they are stupid.
Because I would take a bullet for someone like you.
And no kidding.
You taught me about life.
That is why in pain.
I still am  in love with you.
Despite the cloudiness of the future.
I still am in love with you Baby.

Therefore,whatever I tried to do now.
Basically is not for me.But for you.I wanna be strong enough and stable enough.
To be able to protect you from all the harm.
Even though Im just a fragile and petite person who.
Really have a lot of flaws and dont have anything to offer.
And also a spoil brat.

But still.
You have given me a reason to change.
That is why.
People may say Im blind.
Then if loving a such wonderful person like you is consider as blind.
Then I rather be blind.







Sunday, December 7, 2014

Runaway Train





Call you up in the middle of the night
like a firefly without a light
you were there like a blowtorch burning
i was a key that could use a little turning
so tired that i couldn't even sleep
so many secrets i couldn't keep
promised myself i wouldn't weep
one more promise i couldn't keep

it seems no one can help me now
i'm in too deep
there's no way out
this time i have really lead myself astray

runaway train, never goin' back
wrong way on a one-way track
seems like i should be getting somewhere
somehow i'm neither here nor there

can you help me remember how to smile?
make it somehow all seem worthwhile
how on earth did i get so jaded?
life's mysteries seem so faded
i can go where noone else can go
i know what no one else knows
here i am just drownin' in the rain
with a ticket for a runaway train

and everything seems cut and dry
day and night
earth and sky
somehow i just don't believe it

runaway train, never goin' back
wrong way on a one-way track
seems like i should be getting somewhere
somehow i'm neither here nor there

bought a ticket for a runaway train
like a madman laughing at the rain
little out of touch, little insane
it's just easier than dealing with the pain


runaway train, never comin' back
runaway train, tearin' up the track
runaway train, burnin' in my veins
i run away but it always seems the same

Friday, December 5, 2014

Look at me now?



“That was all part of giving someone a piece of your heart; they ended up taking a whole chunk of your mind and reserving it all for themselves.” 
― Cecelia AhernIf You Could See Me Now



“I'm real. And i'm not going anywhere until you open those eyes properly and see me” 
― Cecelia AhernIf You Could See Me Now

I wish I can say that. But am I not saying enough though? Am I not trying enough?
For a person who already fragile.I think I already gave my all.  Does it worth it?
Am i regretting, you ask? No.
But as much as you are important to me.Sometimes I do wish I am too.Or am I asking the impossible here?
It's funny I have been always trying to be all positive.When  the fact is Im full of negative 
things.I cant even brain myself.People are given two path.So I have choose mine.AND You obviously choose yours, but it seems that will the path cross in the middle?
I just wondering.That pairs of beautiful eyes.When they looking at me,does it just looking into me or through me?Being possessive.That;s not love.I learned that before.Though sometimes,
I wish I can be selfish.But what is the point forcing after all?And yeah. Now this is killing,
It's like screw it. I dont even want to think about it.Yeah right.
Maybe the thoughts of giving each part of me already breaking me up.
Then you remember that quote “It’s better to have loved and lost than to have ever loved at all” and you’re like, “okay, fine.”
so I guess everyone is an idiot when it comes to matters of heart. Love is the great equalizer. Whenever you feel intimidated by someone's coolness, just imagine them sobbing in their bedroom after someone broke their heart.I guarantee  it's happened.
but instead of thinking of choices, I may as well just travel. Well maybe I need some
good look at the world. Sometimes you have to walk a million new miles, and maybe that
time I wont really feel my heart drop all the time.Maybe that time Im strong enough to just smile sincerely and wishing you happiness.
Will you miss me truthfully by then I guess?

or again
.Im asking too much.



Tuesday, November 25, 2014

little thoughts.



Assalammualaikum.

Life is funny isn't it? Just when you think you've got it all figured out, just when you finally begin to plan something, get excited about something, and feel like you know what direction you're heading in, the paths change, the signs change, the wind blows the other way, north is suddenly south, and east is west, and you're lost. It is easy to lose your way, to lose direction.” 
― Cecilia Ahern Love Rosie
okay the truth is,
I need to finish my study ASAP.
so that in the future everytime I FEEL like if people are not treating me good enough.
I would just take a one way plan ticket and never going back ever.
But well as you know my fragile heart.
I will still come back to MALAYSIA I guess.
hmm Im going back to Malacca again.
to be honest.
I need a vacation.
but well.
okay trying not to be upsetting over little things.
For those who have been there through thick and thin.
You guys are the best.
Noted.
Im always thankful for you guys.





Monday, November 10, 2014

Mei Guan Xi



Im the girl who.
pretend to be strong when Im just really a cry baby.
A girl who pretend to be like a boy.
When all I want is a person to just know how fragile I am.
Im the person who always walk with crowds but I feel empty.
Im the girl who creates troubles just because Im not happy.
Im the girl who carve my pain on my hands and my body.
Im the girl who fed up with every single things.
Just because I care so much.
Im the girl who dont know how to tolerates but I'll try any way.
There's so much things.
That I cant even say.
Im the girl who being stabs so many time that I feel dead inside.
Im the girl who cant differentiate angle or devil.

Im the girl.
who accidentally.
love you with every broken pieces of mine.
despite how worst the outcomes.
Despite how cloudy the future seems to be.
Despite how broken I might be.
I just cant let go.
nor doing any u-turn.

Mei Guan Xi.
I wont let go of your hand.
I just cant.

Saturday, July 26, 2014

Confession:Toxic



Assalammualaikum.



Hi.It's been a long time.No updates.
How is my life?
Rollercoaster wei.Penat.Hectic.Banyak kali juga rasa putus harapan.Rasa macam lantaklah kau.
Rasa macam iolss nak hamek je passport beli one ticket to anywhere and never coming back.
kau hado?hamboii.Tapi malaih lah.
Because what I like about this life is.Korang tak boleh give up.Iolls ni dh banyak kali.Juta-juta
nak give up.Sometimes is just tiring.But Allah is being really kind to a girl that always and
always make mistake.
But Alhamdullilah.I am getting more in love with my life.But what I would like to say is life is really
unpredictable.Korang rancang lah mcm mana pun kalau korang tak reti nak minta restu Ilahi.
It wont work well.And in my life I learned a lot about PEOPLE.
Is not Im saying Im good or what.But I do feel tired of some people of actually trying to get
advantages of me.Using me for their own good.Rasa macam blerghh.
Kadang-kadang nak husnuzon but some people getting on their selfish way that makes me like.
Urghhhh.
People always thought that well Ioss anak orang senang bagai.The truth is when actually I dont have
money I dont really like to ask my friends.And I will try my best not to even pinjam.
Even if I borrow I will always make sure that I pay back to each one of them.
And let say if I dont have money to buy it,I dont really ask people to buy it from me.
Not even my boyfriend, well if I were in a relationship.I will just kiddingly ask.Jokingly.
Because I feel like,Im not that kinda person that will like makes people buy me stuff.
Unless if you are my family.Ha ha ha.But well, my point is.
Yess I have this bad experiences with some people that actually just used me for money.
Looking back,I feel like stewpid wasting my money for those people.Like why the
heck.I could just save my money and travel rather than you know spill the money to ungrateful people.
And the funniest thing about these kind of people,is they keep using the reason
that they are from not so rich family.
Like what the heck?Come on.Even so,you should not act like that kot.
These kind of people really makes me feel disgust.Because actually money is never enough for them.
Once they get it,They want it more and more.They tend to say,they dont want to
burden their family,but have you ever though that YOU burdening me?How would you feel if you already give the money and suddenly they said they dont have enuff money and yet buying all the expensive stuff.
Like get a life?If you dont have enuff money why would you just spend the money to all those branded stuff trying to make you look good but actually pathetic.Eh tolonglah.
I just cant brain myself.
Okay enuff said.And some more about hot tempered guy.Like I really hate these kinda of guys.
Its like you are just a coward who bully women because they are not as strong as you.
get a life.and even the funniest thing is when some people told me that I dont understand them.
Because I dont really give a damn anymore about how they feel.
Its like,come on.You tore me apart.Were you even there when I need you?
I was there when you were crying?but remember you push me away when I breakdown.
Oh pleaseee.And you want my sympathy?The heck.Some people.
makes me speachless.I cannot brain myself having these kind of people approaching in mylife.
they are just selfish and I know they are not even sincere with me.And there are a lot of people actually does really nice things for me.And I should treasure that people more than some fake people.
I finally open up my eyes. and treasuring my life.
I feel much better cutting these kind of people out of my life.
Blesss.You cant mingle with people that toxicly ruinning your life.
People can make  you feel like crap but trust me walk away.Your life is fabulous.
You dont need toxic people.
wehoo Alhamdullilah.
happy.




Friday, July 4, 2014

Eyes.Nose.Lips




okay macam tak memasal letak.
gambar my love from the sky.

but hey hey.
there this person.
in case.
if he still doubting.
just wanna say.
i miss you baby.
thanks for coming back.
          

Monday, June 23, 2014

Unexpected.


Assalammualaikum.


Dah lama kan?




I think.
Im gonna give up all the nonsense thing in my life.
a bit by a bit.
too much.
lagha.
and Tuhan.
never Fail me.
Kita bukan makin lama makin muda.
kubur dh memanggil.
and.
I just wanna settle down.
with the person.
that is unexpected one.

eh malas lah nk ckp banyak.
but well.
Allah never Fail you.
keep my faith on this line.

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Started to Breathe.





Assalammualaikum.


You put your life into me 
When I was dead on arrival and ready to leave
You took me into your heart 
And I started to breathe 
I thought my chances were gone
 All of my bridges were burned and it wouldn’t be long
 Then you took me into your heart 
And I started to breathe
 Life goes many ways 
When you lose your direction the road can just fade
 For me I was going nowhere endlessly 
You showed me through you 
All that I ever needed was to be true 
You see 
A better me inside of me 

Alhamdullilah.things are getting better.
even if it's not.
Im glad.I don't quit after all the trials.
and chaos.
Just walk with the swag.
and I know my swag.
 

Sunday, March 16, 2014

what are words?



Assalammualaikum.


korang sihat?
dah lama tak jengah.belog dh berlapuk seh.busy.aku busy.
dan line tenet agak kurang memuaskan.okay.
aku nak update sekejap cuma.
sebab aku ada banyak gila keje yang harus dan wajiblah aku selesaikan.
life has been like roller-coaster.
memula,aku ingat aku dah nak lingkup.tapi Alhamdullilah.
Allah never fail to ease me.
Hmmm.
at first.I thought I would probably die due to stress and disappointments.
But then.I think.what the heck?Im bless.Allah loves me.
He for sure will NEVER brings me trials that I never can over come.
And yes.I walk with swag.Though I was trembling inside at first.
but I am me.I know Im strong.
And what I learn about life is.Becareful in putting your trust to people.
because even your own blood would stab you.
Remember our Prophet Yusuf a.s? He was back stabbed by his own blood.
so don't despair.After all they are only human.so move on.and learned.
so I would like to emphasize on my topic today.
which is.
WHAT ARE WORDS?
I mean wat are words if you say it but you didn't even mean it.
ce fikir.sorrylah kalau korang rasa aku cam poyoss sangat nak guna english.
tapi sebab english aku yg poyo ni la i need to freaking use it. ha ha ha.
aku study english like almost the same aku study bm.
so i have to use it because my grammar is suck ya know!
at least korang faham lagi bahasa melayu aku.aku bm dapat B kot SPM.
hahahahha.what the fish cake kan?
takpalah.cite lama.
what are words in term of loving somebody.
korang tak leh cakap cam ni.aku suka kau.or i is loving you.bila tengah happy time je.
when you love a person.you should be dedicated and devoted to love
that person through hard and easy times.come on we are talking about REAL LOVE!
Not some cat love/puppy love.
I mean let say,what if what if one day.the one that you love.based on only appearance.
because they are some havoc hot dude.
and that person met an accident.
and you know have disable in physical stuff like that.
will you love him the same?
of the difficulty makes you some selfish biatch?
and leave him.
because you should realize something.that person is still the same person you love.
the soul still in that body.
why am i actually stressing on this.
because based on my true experience.
I have a bestfriend.and my bestfriend  has a friend.A chinese woman who converted to Islam.
She was married to this fella.and everything was perfect.until she
was diagnosed to have cancer.Heartbreakingly the selfish bastard husband.
left her.divorce her.with their little baby.
the heck are you clarifying your love only for good times is it?
so well.
people.this life.what goes around sure comes back around.
you can say that you love a person so bad.
but if it is only for good times.you just some rubbish that living the life.
and by the way,the wife eventually died.and my friend have to take care of the child.
but luckily his new wife is sorta kind.
and the child finally was took care by her father and step mom.
my friend have to do a regular check up so that there is nothing bad happen to the
child.
hmmm.sad right?
i have a lot of story to share.
but whatever it is.
i learned.you gotta be strong for yourself.people can support you but you yourself need to make
up your mind and push to yourself upwards.because if you fail to do so.
this is your life.
if you don't be strong.who else will?
Trust Allah.and chill.
memang.sometimes you feel like kicking people.
because you are so hurt.I know.I lost my temper so many times you know.
you have to be strong.and believe in yourself.
people will stab you.wrong you.hurt you.prick you.but if you
give up.you give them the reason to win.
so i dare you to not giving up.
because if you feel like you are so freaking susah.
trust me.there are so many people that living in difficult state.maybe much worst than you.
Heal your heart.with Allah and Al-Quran.
the best cure.
oh and somehow you can also search for good quotes okay.
it will fire up your spirit.


Where every single promise I'll keep
Cause what kind of human would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean the



nanti aku update lagi tahu.
sayang korang.
grammar aku berterabur.
sbb malas sangat nak ikut dan check.
hahah.sorry tahu.








Thursday, February 20, 2014

magnificent.



Assalammualaikum.




mungkin.
sepatutnya.
aku.tertonggeng.haha.
tapi entah.
aku rasa.
bahagia.
harap bahagia ini.
tidak sekejap cuma.
Tuhan.
rindu aku sangat ni.
aku pun rindu Dia.
sangat.
sebaik-baik tempat pergantungan itu.
adalah Allah.
maka bergantung.hanya pada Dia.
sebab perasaan indah.
yang datang bila pergantungan hanya kepada yang Hakiki itu.
SANGAT.
magnificent.
 




sekejap.


The world will knock you down a 100 times, but Allah will pick you up a 1000 times.
aku ambil masa sekejap.
untuk update.maklumlah.
blog makin berhabuk.usang.
esok.aku pergi.ke bumi korea.
syukur.rezeki Tuhan kan.
ada yg merindu?
titip doa ye.semoga.
selamat pulang.selamat pergi.
aku tertanya.
if ever.my presence ever.actually affected people's life?
i mean touching their life.
in a good way.
if ever i touch your life.
in a bad way.
im sorry.
desperately humbly.
im asking this.
and to those yang giving me tonnes of advices.
sayang sangat.
sungguh tak terlintas.
korang nak bazirkan masa korang.
for a person like me.
speechless tahu.
you know who you ARE.
And therefore.
thank you people.
life has been great.
and im treasuring it.
ala. benda boleh settle.
 aku mula terfikir.hmmm.
rindu.
rindu sangat.
sangat.
Tuhan.
sampai sini saja sekejapnya.


Friday, February 7, 2014

kau."malaikat" eh?



Sebab.Kita.Sampai.Mati.Kan?
eh.tak.
sampai  syurga.


ini cerita kita-kita.
Ini cerita duka.suka.perit.ranap.dan bahagia.
aku jumpa. Afri,baru aku kenal si Im (Iman) dan Ad  (Adam)
mula-mula.
mmg benci menggunung.menyampah tahu.tak pernah terniat.terfikir.
nak kawan pon.rasa mcm ek eleh? please. mamat berlagak ni.
aku tumbuk je.
ha ha ha.
lagipon.aku masa tu anti-sosial.jangan kata nak cakap.nak jeling pon malas.
aku  masa tu zaman ranap-ranappan.
zaman sakit.zaman pilu.zaman perit.zaman jatuh.
so macam.malas-malas saja.
masa tu sekor pon kawan lelaki aku tak ada.well.sadly.aku buang semua.
for girls.pon sama.aku rasa zaman tu.zaman aku membuang kawan.
nasib ah a  few tegar.a few yang faham.aku tengah ranap.
so.here it goes.
Afri.yang aku sangka manusia  berlagak cipanzi itu.sesungguhnya.adalah.
kawan yang sangat baik tahap nak menangis.
well.aku judge muka masa tu.sebab muka si afri bila tak senyum.kelat.benci.
macam  bajet2 bagus.pfft!
well muka aku pon sama.
we met at a restaurant.di mana waktu tu aku sensorang.dia pon sama.
sebab restoran tu penuh sangat.dia boleh buat muka relax."miss,can i sit here."dgn
muka yang konon  'gila ke kau taknak duduk dgn aku'sebab.honestly.
afri ni bolehlah.hensem.(muntah) okay2.mmg hensem.kacuk pulak tu uolls.mahu tak
leleh orang sebelah aku ingat dia boyfie.walhal baru je jumpa.Masa tu aku diam je.
mcm malas nak layan.Dia boleh berdiri kat situ tengok muka aku yang mcm  hantu pucat lesi.cis cake!
tahu ah muka kau mcm model Kelvin Clein tu.amende ntah.
dahdia berdiri camtu aku  pon terpaksa.TERPAKSA!
"Duduklah."suara  bajet2 nak lempang.
lepas tu senyap.aku buat-buat main phone.dia pula.
kau tahu apa?tengok aku main phone.Dari situlah kita org kenal.
kau tahu dia buat apa.dia minta phone gua.cakap nak
call orang ambil dia.(tipu)
pastu save number dia.miscall number aku kat phone dia.
pastu leh cakap.
"now we are friend."
ha ha ha.
aku tak pernah jumpa alien mcm ni.sbb dia perasan sangat.
aku pula.benci orang yg fikir dia boleh dpt semua sekali.
so aku mmg tak layan dia.tapi Ya Ampun.
afri ni mcm tahu je aku ni zaman ranap.
afri cakap.aku ni manusia keras kepala batu.
masa tu aku dah melalak.sebab aku geram.dia tak habis kacau aku.
dan aku sebenarnya.penat.lelah.sebab aku tak suka org tahu apa yg aku rasa.
yg manusia ni pula suka kacau aku.
then.i got to know.
afri bukan anonymous.
he is actually kawan kepada kawan aku yang kami jumpa dalam
majlis kawan aku which aku mmg tak perasan muka dia.what the heck.
kau ingat aku heran pula masa tu muka cam korea ke apa.aku tengah ranap doh.
kawan aku yang bertuah tu pula blh cakap.
aku ni tak suka lelaki.(salah infomarsi.)
maksudnya.aku ni tak layan lelaki.
afri tu masa mula-mula nak test market dia aje.(ha ha ha)
after he know what happened.
dan aku tahu apa  niat dia.sebab dia bagi tahu.kita orang  pon.
kawan.walopon rasa mcm krg ajar gila kau nak mainkan aku.
tapi respect.sebab dia.sanggup bg tahu semua.even tahu aku akan lempang dia.
well.aku mmg suka tampar orang.
orang kalau tak kenal.cakap dia playboy antarabangsa.
mungkin sebab muka dia yang jambu tu.ha ha ha.
dia dah ada awek.jangan ingat aku aweknya pula.(stalker)
sebab.aku nak cakap.dalam banyak-banyak kawan.
kau tak pernah nak ungkit.tak pernah nak marah.
bila dah ada awek pon.kau cakap kalau awek kau tak suka aku.
kau putus.(vangang.)
dia tak suka aku.macam yang lebih2 korang rasa.
tapi kami.dh mcm adik beradik.masa kau ada awek.kau selalu risau dgn aku.
kau takut aku sensorang.
kau siap boleh carikan lagi.sampai si Im dgn Ad pon kau bagi sebagai calon.
GILA.Awkard.
sampai bila Qaish,buat aku bagai nak gila pon.Kau yang bersekang mata tunggu aku
tido.sebab kau takut aku buat benda yang hampeh.
bila aku cakap aku ni useless.
kau boleh pula bagi lists yang panjang nak gila.
hmmm.why i am not.
bila aku cakap.nanti kau tak suka aku.
kau cakap.
"aku.zaman apa je tak pernah tengok kau?
masa kau buruk,masa kau setan.masa kau comel.masa kau cantik.
semua.aku dh nampak.dan aku tak rasa kau buruk."

pastu sebab birthday aku kau xde.
kau plan nak suprise.
tapi tak jadi.sebab aku nampak hadiah make up.
the heck.takkan Iman pakai make up kan?
Iman tu manusia paling tawadduk aku pernah jumpa.
ish.
pastukau nak cover.cakap itu untuk awek kau.si manis Sarah.
what the heck ada nama aku.
ha ha ha.

nanti kau dah tak ada kat sini.
Im dan Ad cakap.
nanti aku murung.
semua nak ajet2 risau.
sebab well.tahulah aku ni camno.
walopon rasa sakit jiwa juga kau nak keje jauh.terpaksalah aku redha.
supaya hadiah untuk tahun yg depan2.
havoc. ha ha ha.okay tak.
dalam banyak2 kawan.
kau tak pernah tak suka aku.
tak pernah nak marah.
sebab tu.
aku rasa kau layak.
aku beritahu pada dunia.
kawan yg baik.
sahabat yang tak pernah meminta.
selalu ada.
pukul 5 pagi kalau aku ajet2 miscall kau dah bom phone aku.
kau ni malaikat manusia ke?cewah.
hari ni birthday kau kan.
kau ingat aku lupa.
tapi sebab aku nk bagi tahu kau.
kalau aku tak jumpa kau dulu.mesti aku tak mcm ni kan.
mesti aku tak blh senyum.
mesti aku masih ranap.
thanks brotherhood.
Mula-mula aku fikir kau lahanat.
tapi kau lh dunia akhirat sahabat.
sampai Im dgn Ad pon cakap.Kau gay!
sebab concern sangat masa depa jatuh.
lepaih tu masing-masing tahu.kau mmg manusia yg satu dlm sejuta.
25 ni.harap kau kahwin cepat.
aku nak anak sedara.
sarah pon dh tunggu.
kau jgn risau.
Tuhan dh bg jodoh aku.
mesti ada punya.
aku happy.
kau gila aku tak happy.
kawan mcm kau ni buat aku happy!
 

 

 
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