Sunday, May 24, 2015

Fix yourself.


5 years ago, a person told me to fix myself. I thought that there was nothing wrong with me.
But maybe.
Today I've admitted.
I was dreaming to be with a prince, when I was nothing.Well im still yet nothing.
But back then, it was sincere despite all the sh*it.
nowadays people see my smile.maybe thinking she is doing well.
the truth is i feel like dying.

as i cannot say im not okay.
fake friends who stab you when you tried to give everything for them.
ex boyfriends who were abusive.
what's more?

God,forgive me for complaining.

the truth are right, im just a loser,loner.
Loser, loner
A coward who pretends to be tough
A mean delinquent

A loner, a jackass covered in scars
Dirty trash
Honestly, I’ve never fit in with the world
I was always alone
It’s been a long time since I’ve forgotten about love
I can’t listen to hopeful love songs anymore
You and me both
We’re just sad clowns, tamed and scripted
I’ve come too far
I wanna go back
To when I was young
At some point
I started looking at the ground more than the sky
It’s hard even to breathe
I hold out my hand
But no one holds it
It’s a cycle of boys and mistakes
Love them for one night
And hate them when morning comes
Can’t own up to it
Because of my selfish pleasure
Everything is being ruined
Can’t stop this dangerous full speed run
Now I have no interest, no fun anymore
I’m standing alone at the edge of a cliff
I’m going home
I wanna go back
To how it was before
At some point
I’ve gotten scared of people’s eyes
I’m sick of crying so I tried smiling
But no one recognizes me
so you dont need to try to shove on my face.I know, im not worth it.Im just tired.I never
Feel more empty.

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