Friday, September 30, 2011

I love you =)

Assalammualaikum dan bismillahirahmanirahim.
ok lappy kesayangan telah masuk hospital.
(tsk tsk tsk)
ni pakai lappy olang laen.
ok,semoga everyone is happy and sehat.

dah tengok video kat atas?
Ya Allah serius sweet kan?
I do have someone or maybe ramai lah jugak yg camni.
Coz im a bit of tantrum sikit.
so this people will always try to correct my image.
i mean Ya Allah mmg thankful sangat ada mereka2 ni.
so like hee chul,
sometimes i do am selfish.
ataupun moody yg sangat tak boleh blah.
and i forgot to say to the one who closer to me.
that i love you lah weyh.
terima kasih sbb risk everything to be besides me.
semua org buat silap kan?
so sorry as i am imperfect.
manalah tahu ada terasa hati k apa kan?
life is short right,so we should forgive each other.
sbb Allah syg org2 yg suka memaafkan ni.
ok lapanya..

Thursday, September 29, 2011

i need you

biar dunia menghina,
tapi ku tetap cinta.
because i miss you.
i need you.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011


Ok sorry sorry sorry naega naega (suju)
hahahha.sorry lambat update.banyak story sangat.
banyak bende happen.tapi mcm malas nk update.
ni pon dh nak balek lendu.
exam weyh,tapi mmg malas nak study.
i miss bella,i miss ira,i mish rehan,tirah,zatie.
and perhaps i miss everyone.
first of all nk cakap ni.
selamat hari raya sume,
maaf zahir dan batin eh.
im not perfect.
so mmmg tahu dah banyak buat salah.
raya bila dh besaw ni tak best weyh.
mmg duit raya dpt banyak tapi tak se best masa kecik2 dulu.
sbb dh besaw nk kene jaga tu jaga ni.
dulu masa kecik sesuka hati je kan?
(mmg masa kecik tak tahu malu!)
menyampah nyew nak balik lendu ni weyh.
malas betul nak stress bagai tengok paper exam.
oh no no no...
huu,my big sista dh balek london.
actually i like more when she is here.
sbb mls nak jadik akak sulung weyh.
banyak tanggungjawab(ceh kau,bkn adek ko ke yg jaga ko?)
ok entri kali ni nk minta maap je.
hahahha,pray for me ehhh.
i need it.
heyy sometimes i am annoying,could you just bear it?

Saturday, September 3, 2011

9 bulan 10 hari

saja nak mencapap,hooyeahhh

I do not know if is it exact 9 months and 10 days.Though it is not approximate
I would say thank you.Though maybe its kind a forbidden,
which actually is not.Im just saying thank you.Thank you for
carrying him for 9 months and ten days.Thank you brought him up so well.Thank you for feeding him.
Thank you for taught him how to talk,and patiently waiting to see
he do the baby steps.I wonder what is the first word ever came out from his mouth?and when the exact time he finally be able to walk stably.I wonder on what age I actually bump into him.
I wonder when is the first time I actually really look out for him.
But I am pretty sure I was very small.How thankful I am to felt what 
I feel back then.I wonder why were I so silent when he talks to me?
Like I was mesmerized by something.Yes!You indeed.Its like "Ya Allah,he talks to me lah!"The time when you stand in front of me and gave me the popcorn.The time when I were sitting on the sofa.So close yet so far.Then the confession.Ya Allah,how did this angel fell for me too???
After years and years,I am thankful.Grateful too.No matter what happen in the future I hope Allah never separate us.No matter what I am thankful to her,for giving me the opportunity to feel how was its like to love someone without no doubt.
It was beyond selfish.I was so young back then,maybe that was the major 
problem.Now my heart and brain seems to corporate together.
I trust in destiny,though I would like you to be beside me now but who
knew what will happen right?You are so close to me.So close to my heart and soul.
I sometimes regret things but over and over again there is a way out.Sometimes you
got to let go,its not because you are weak but that shows how strong you are.
And sometimes in pain you smile,that shows the strength.I used to hate.
But Ya Allah its been years.You faithfully teach me patiently to take the baby 
steps and build back what have been destroyed.Do you now that I rarely met a guy like you?
So maybe that is the reason I am not interested to just fooling around with this entah apa2 guy
(ok jahatnya).Ada orang kata dalam bumi ni ada 7 org yg sejibik mcm kita kan?I want your twin! macam lari tajuk ni.Hahaha,9 months and 10 days,
and how could I not love you for let him out to see the world?
That is the reason I would not argue.If you say don't than your wish is my commend,
thank you and thank you again.Alhamdullilah finally,finally after all these years
I could say that I am fine,I am okey.Ok normallah kan if sometimes raining kan?
But I want to be the sunny me again!huhuhue.

Half of me.

There are a lot of things that i feel like to say now.
i have a lot of precious things and precious dearest.
I HAVE MY parents which always give what i crave for,
yet im not a complete spoil brat.

and i have the 3 siblings which even if i am like the most annoying
complicated rebel monster but still they support me.
though i have this sister of mine which is my elder yg 
a bit strict but i know its because to make me human.
by the way im not a good talker,
maybe im just good in writing.
not good to enough to express my feelings.
so i often makes other people offended.
its so hard rite to say the word sorry?

then i have my very very good friends..
  ok sebenarnya berlambak lg gambar tapi maybe i should make a new entry title my friend or something
related kan??
i miss them.
ok ada banyak lg kawan nieyh.
sorry to yg tak letak gamba.
hmm should i letak gambar my guys friend?
ok confirm gossipers buat gosip murahan lg nanti.
so maybe not yet.

and the last but not least.
do you know that i have a guardian angel?
everyone's know i am hot-tempered.
does you?
and im a cry baby.
and i am very stubborn.
and do you know that this fella have been dealing it all the way?
fight?is just a common things for us.
tears,we both did cry a lot.
yes he even got a slap from me.or is it more thn once?
yes i love to scream to him.
yes i make his life ups and down.
and yes we always not sure of us.
and yes i am not sure of us either,but nevertheless
i wonder how could his bear all this after all the time?
and how could i bear it too?
and maybe just maybe,i should at least be thankful.
and if you ask me if i love him?I'D LIE BY SAYING NO.
do you know im wishing to witness a miracle?

I love to know who you are,

I selalu dapat visitor from kedah,and negeri sembilan.
Sape kah anda?do drop comments <3
As far as I knw I have a very few friends from those area.

I love to know who you guys are <3.

Taylor Swift

A confenssion.
do you guys know that i love all the TAYLOR SWIFT SONGS!
hahaha,almost every lah kan.
I mean I selalu perasan yang lagu tu macam define about my feelings.
atau my life.atau what i wish for.
mmg im in love sangat dgn lagu2 dia lah.

I think the first song that i started to like from her is definitely tears drop on my guitar.
then its love story lah!
ok i should give the song that i like from her kan.
and seriously she is good!
  • Tears drop on my guitar
  • Love story
  • You belong with me
  • I'D LIE
  • The way i loved you
  • If this was a movie
  • MINE
  • MEAN

Friday, September 2, 2011


And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to....
Without you....
It's two a.m., feeling like I just lost a friend..
Hope you know this ain't easy...
People are people and sometimes we change our minds..
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time...
Now I don't know what to be without you around

If This was a MOVIE.

I was a FAN of miracle.
or perhaps the famous quotation which is "to witness a miracle".
FROM my very favorite movie which is
a walk to remember.
and then i stop believing.
but then there is this song like
So if its happen.
and i finally know how to play music instrument.
I would play every song to let  everyone know.
because im a fan of musics.
but i do not have the nice voice.tsk tsk tsk.
but through song i often let my feeling out.
i <3 this lyrics which i dah ubah.
so mmg kene with mine.
if i given the chance i would really wanna sing this song to
this one only exception.

Last night I heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footsteps on my stairs
  three years gone and I'm still reaching
Even though I know you're not there
I was playing back a thousand memories, baby
Thinking 'bout everything we've been through
Maybe I've been going back too much lately
When time stood still and I had you

Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside 'til I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

I know people change and these things happen
But I remember how it was back then
Locked up in your arms and our friends are laughing
'cause nothing like this ever happened to them,
Now I'm pacing up the hall, chasing down your street
Flashback to a night when you said to me,
"Nothing's gonna change, not for me and you
Not before I knew how much I had to lose"

Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside 'til I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

If you're out there
If you're somewhere
If you're moving on
I'll be waiting for you
Wary, since you've been gone
I just want it back the way it was before
And I just want to see you back at my front door
And I say

Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would before you say it's not that easy
Before the fight, before I left you out
But I take it all back now
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside 'til I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

You'd be here by now
It's not the kind of ending you wanna see now
Baby, I don't like the ending
Oh, I thought you'd be here now, whoa
Thought you'd be here by now

It's funny how once you find a song that explains exactly how you feel, 
you listen to the song over and over again wishing you 
could scream the lyrics to the very person who made 
you love the song in the first place.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

My angel.

There are things are better left unsaid.
There are things are better undone.
There are words better never be spoken.
There are feeling are better hidden.
 so today i hurts some people feelings but i remain silent.
because what is left to say?

there 2 types of people.
the first is the kind that think they are good and do not have sins.
the kind that always critics others.
and never mirror themselves.
and i watched them almost everyday.
and maybe its inside of each of us.
the second one is the type that close to you.
no matter what you become.
though you are the kind that very very unpredictable.
or perhaps complicated.
or maybe a bit annoying and demanding.
and they look through you.
though even you do not wanna share.
they understand.
the kind who stay close to your heart.
i found one.
my mom.
and i love her.
she is my angel.
because no matter what i turns out.
she will always be there for me.
i love to write and read,i talk less.

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