SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

Ok sorry sorry sorry naega naega (suju)

hahahha.sorry lambat update.banyak story sangat.

banyak bende happen.tapi mcm malas nk update.

ni pon dh nak balek lendu.

exam weyh,tapi mmg malas nak study.

i miss bella,i miss ira,i mish rehan,tirah,zatie.

and perhaps i miss everyone.

first of all nk cakap ni.

selamat hari raya sume,

maaf zahir dan batin eh.

im not perfect.

so mmmg tahu dah banyak buat salah.

raya bila dh besaw ni tak best weyh.

mmg duit raya dpt banyak tapi tak se best masa kecik2 dulu.

sbb dh besaw nk kene jaga tu jaga ni.

dulu masa kecik sesuka hati je kan?

(mmg masa kecik tak tahu malu!)

menyampah nyew nak balik lendu ni weyh.

malas betul nak stress bagai tengok paper exam.

oh no no no...

huu,my big sista dh balek london.

wuwuwu.

actually i like more when she is here.

sbb mls nak jadik akak sulung weyh.

banyak tanggungjawab(ceh kau,bkn adek ko ke yg jaga ko?)

ok entri kali ni nk minta maap je.

hahahha,pray for me ehhh.

i need it.

heyy sometimes i am annoying,could you just bear it?

hahahahhaha.

9 bulan 10 hari

saja nak mencapap,hooyeahhh

I do not know if is it exact 9 months and 10 days.Though it is not approximate

I would say thank you.Though maybe its kind a forbidden,

which actually is not.Im just saying thank you.Thank you for

carrying him for 9 months and ten days.Thank you brought him up so well.Thank you for feeding him.

Thank you for taught him how to talk,and patiently waiting to see

he do the baby steps.I wonder what is the first word ever came out from his mouth?and when the exact time he finally be able to walk stably.I wonder on what age I actually bump into him.

I wonder when is the first time I actually really look out for him.

But I am pretty sure I was very small.How thankful I am to felt what 

I feel back then.I wonder why were I so silent when he talks to me?

Like I was mesmerized by something.Yes!You indeed.Its like "Ya Allah,he talks to me lah!"The time when you stand in front of me and gave me the popcorn.The time when I were sitting on the sofa.So close yet so far.Then the confession.Ya Allah,how did this angel fell for me too???

After years and years,I am thankful.Grateful too.No matter what happen in the future I hope Allah never separate us.No matter what I am thankful to her,for giving me the opportunity to feel how was its like to love someone without no doubt.

It was beyond selfish.I was so young back then,maybe that was the major 

problem.Now my heart and brain seems to corporate together.

I trust in destiny,though I would like you to be beside me now but who

knew what will happen right?You are so close to me.So close to my heart and soul.

I sometimes regret things but over and over again there is a way out.Sometimes you

got to let go,its not because you are weak but that shows how strong you are.

And sometimes in pain you smile,that shows the strength.I used to hate.

But Ya Allah its been years.You faithfully teach me patiently to take the baby 

steps and build back what have been destroyed.Do you now that I rarely met a guy like you?

So maybe that is the reason I am not interested to just fooling around with this entah apa2 guy

(ok jahatnya).Ada orang kata dalam bumi ni ada 7 org yg sejibik mcm kita kan?I want your twin!Huhuhuhu...ni macam lari tajuk ni.Hahaha,9 months and 10 days,

and how could I not love you for let him out to see the world?

That is the reason I would not argue.If you say don't than your wish is my commend,

thank you and thank you again.Alhamdullilah finally,finally after all these years

I could say that I am fine,I am okey.Ok normallah kan if sometimes raining kan?

But I want to be the sunny me again!huhuhue.

Half of me.

There are a lot of things that i feel like to say now.

i have a lot of precious things and precious dearest.

I HAVE MY parents which always give what i crave for,

yet im not a complete spoil brat.

kekekekekek.

and i have the 3 siblings which even if i am like the most annoying

complicated rebel monster but still they support me.

though i have this sister of mine which is my elder yg 

a bit strict but i know its because to make me human.

by the way im not a good talker,

maybe im just good in writing.

not good to enough to express my feelings.

so i often makes other people offended.

its so hard rite to say the word sorry?

then i have my very very good friends..

 

  ok sebenarnya berlambak lg gambar tapi maybe i should make a new entry title my friend or something

related kan??

i miss them.

ok ada banyak lg kawan nieyh.

sorry to yg tak letak gamba.

hmm should i letak gambar my guys friend?

ok confirm gossipers buat gosip murahan lg nanti.

so maybe not yet.

and the last but not least.

do you know that i have a guardian angel?

everyone's know i am hot-tempered.

does you?

and im a cry baby.

and i am very stubborn.

and do you know that this fella have been dealing it all the way?

fight?is just a common things for us.

tears,we both did cry a lot.

yes he even got a slap from me.or is it more thn once?

yes i love to scream to him.

yes i make his life ups and down.

and yes we always not sure of us.

and yes i am not sure of us either,but nevertheless

i wonder how could his bear all this after all the time?

and how could i bear it too?

and maybe just maybe,i should at least be thankful.

and if you ask me if i love him?I'D LIE BY SAYING NO.

do you know im wishing to witness a miracle?

I love to know who you are,

CURIOUSSSSSS!

I selalu dapat visitor from kedah,and negeri sembilan.

Sape kah anda?do drop comments <3

As far as I knw I have a very few friends from those area.

I love to know who you guys are <3.